uggggggh
i want to say so much but i dont even know where to start.
a head full of thoughts!

just got back from a show/dance night thing where my friends DJed. was fun but weird because it brought back some strange memories that made me feel vulnerable.
kinda stressed financially right now...learned of a big slip-up of my boss' and i cant do anything about it. going to affect my fundsssss.
so glad tomorrow is sunday but it will still not be a relaxing day because theres a lot of work to do at beatpol.
monday-wednesday is going to be hell because old men will be in my room from 7-4pm, repainting/finishing the window. apparently it takes three days and they leave a mess when they are done. hooray. my room is my place of peace. what am i to do? and yuck, dont wanna wake up early after having a late night at beatpol.
going to a local soccer game monday night.
have a random date thing tuesday night. ha.
wednesday is english lesson and beatpol. thursday babysitting, friday = excursion + beatpol.
yaaaaaada da da da da da.
i stopped typing just now to kill a tiny mosquito who kept buzzing around my ear. i killed him, really did. but you know what? he was full of blood or something because a pouch of red liquid exploded into my hands.
that was disssssgustinggggggg, wowwww.

really tired of engaging meaninglessly with people. literally achingggggggggg for something tangible again. but. such things are hard to come by and i know theres so much time anyway, so, patience?

going to bed